MYLIFE

how much do you treasure friendship?
we choose our own close friends and "hi-bye" friends.

i wonder if you'll ever read this but i know if you read it,
you'll know its a post just for you.


we started of as being friends,
to being really close friends,
one i'll call to talk to when i'm heading home at night,
one i'll whine all my problems to,
one i'll laugh and cry with,
i'll supper with and mahjong with.


i remember the happy cup bubble tea you bought for me when i was upset,
i remember duck porridge sessions,
remember talking under the blk near our place,
remember the l4d sessions,
remember you sending me up cause you know i've lift phobia,
remember you always being here when i needed.


really regretted not being there for you,
and you were disappointed.
i guess it was since then that we started drifting apart,
ever since i started teaching..
tried to salvage the friendship,
things got slightly better,
until i decide to mia from the world.
for the 1st time i guess,
you weren't here for me.


now you're gone,
we're distant.
or rather like you said, i'm thinking too much.
but you know its different,
and i know it'll never be the same again.


perhaps its better this way.
no expectations on a friend


like someone told me,
friends are rank according to classes,
like first class, economy class blabla
maybe you've shifted me frm first class to economy class.
economy class being a friend who still can hold a conversation but not that important anymore.


maybe its time i should hold down my expectations too.


when you told me ____________ is a good friend,
somehow i felt like i'm a lousy friend.
i'd still be here for you if you ever feel like really talking to me again.
but i guess you're alright for now with many other better friends then being there with you.


in anycase i want to let you know i miss a friend like you.

scream your heart OUT ;12:59 AM

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